This is a hard post for me to write. It’s personal, and it’s not easy for me to admit when I’m overwhelmed. But I wouldn’t be who I am if I wasn’t honest with you.
Confession time: I am burned out on life. It’s not just one thing, like work, but rather, everything. I’m the kind of person who likes to do ALL THE THINGS. And I think it’s finally catching up with me.
For example, I:
- Taught a social media class at a local writers conference in January.
- Was a guest author and panelist/moderator at Mysticon in February.
- Published the third DC book in March.
- Co-chaired the first Roanoke Author Invasion in April.
- Got serious about my side business (social media consulting) in May.
- Did UtopYA in June as PR Coordinator, speaker, and signing author.
- Finished the fourth DC book in July.
- And am now wrapping up a YA superhero book (first in a trilogy) probably before the end of this month.
All on top of a full time job and the occasional but necessary Friday night happy hours. And now it’s AUGUST?! Holy balls!
I love what I do, really! But I think we all hit a big, fat brick wall at some point. I like to think I can tough it out, but we all know how that ends: emotional eating (ie late-night milkshake trips), lying wide awake in bed staring at the ceiling going over our to do lists, and/or panic attacks.
It’s gotten to the point where all I want to do is hide under my covers or zone out on my couch. Instead, I know even if I tried to do those things, I can’t get my brain to stop churning out ideas. Problem is, they’re not all GOOD ideas because I haven’t had time to recharge the batteries. I might be doing 100 things FINE, but I’d rather be doing 10 things WELL. Does that make sense?
I’m usually the first person to tell others that it’s okay to take breaks. That it’s a good thing, recommended even, to step back from your work every once in a while to give yourself some space.
I, however, am sometimes a hypocrite when it comes to work. Admittedly, I’ve spent several hours going back through seasons of Supernatural, but it’s always playing in the background while I work. Or I’ll sit and watch TV with my husband, only to be constantly working through a scene in my head. It’s impossible to shut off!
I’ve had a few suggestions on how to recharge my batteries, but unfortunately a weeklong trip to the Bahamas isn’t in the cards right now (hell, a trip to the lake is barely in the budget). I avoid crowds at almost any cost. I’ve considered a three-day weekend where I unplug from the computer and sit on my couch with the dog. But nothing seems to appeal to me and/or sound right. I’m at a loss, quite frankly, and so I thought I’d see if you had any bright ideas.
How do you shut your brain off? Or rather, what are some things you do when you just need to check out for a couple days and avoid the guilt that comes with it?